If you guys were wandering if roselyn is lose with the wind, almost right.. haha.. was so busy and stressed up with my damn assignments that i don't even remember to eat dinner. i have finally finish the last of it and will sleep like there is no tomorrow when i hand it in! getting alittle feverish now, must be a warning sign of overworked. I'm somewhat starting to hate the culture here. part of it is liberty that course mates can sent their essay for you to reference, but part of it is pure annoying when your group mates just leave you there to swim for your life, writing god knows what! what happened to the care and share lifestyle? anyway, enough of that. let me tell you how i spent my 21st birthday.
actually it's nothing much really. rented a car to drive, something i always wanted to do, and scare the wits out of all my friends with my shocking driving skills.. haha.. and as usual, i can't park. hee...
when to watch the last sunset of my 20th year on 10/10/08, but didn't manage to wake up for the 1st sunrise of my new chapter because i was too tired after the 2 hours drive to and fore.
on the day itself, 11/10/08, got my very 1st birthday gift at 9.35am! my 1st and last parking ticket fine!!!! hahaha, cause we never move the car away before 7.30am, therefore got fine... opphzz.. anyhow, when to a winery 1hr's drive away from home. the view was breathe taking. but it was a rush and pity because we had to go to church soon after. Ended the day with a quiet dinner with my church friends, oh well, at least i did something and celebrated this year! oh ya! and my housemate did gave me a surprise birthday surprise at 12am, how sweet of her.. so that's me, my 'big' day and I.. haha...

there goes another week and here i am blogging in a blog that most probability only i will read. sounds sad hey? oh well, at least i can get all my thoughts out of my head before i continue full on with my 4000 word essay. so, where should i start, well, i guess it's true about the saying that a leopard will never change it's spots. somehow, i realized that i am still who i was 3 years ago, not changing a single bit. as much as i hated the past and all mess that was in it,i just don't understand why the past seems so attractive. it lures me back like a flashing sign board or should it be bonded me like a jail ball. no matter how hard i try, no distances how far i run, it's haunts me like a ghost from the past.so here i am, in a new place, with new people, yet dreadfully back to square one, where the mess begin and the wreckage start. a full circle of sticky situations that i tired so hard to avoid without avail.
a story left untold is still a story itself. at the end, it's none but the author who wrote it that is accountable for it's publishing and outcome. i really wish i could burn the past, it's like an ugly scar that sits right under the corner of your nose. no amount of effort will conceal it, and ultimately becomes a pest in your sight. too much is left in the dark, and countless memories shoved up the yard. yet my heart starts to grow numbed to a thing called consciences, dying in my world of no escape.

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well, if it is one thing i realise as i live through this lonely yet stressful, hellful months of never ending assignment in Aussie land, is that every song has it's unique story behind it. each song heard represents a person who was once or is since in our life. that's why people always claim that this is OUR song. yeah~ definitely!
i walked home one night listening to my MP3, and song after song reminded me of the days and memories i had with the person associated with the song. never a less i dreadfully miss those times, yet am glad that it is over. so am i happy with what's left in my 'pretty' picture right now? the constant silence traps inside me.

Labels: tots

Oh well, i know it's really a long time, around a month plus that I haven't been blogging, and lets say that lots of things has changed. even my view about life and the world. anyway, that won't be much of a concern rather i am very thankful for friends that are always there for me. people like Mei2, Diana, and Feng, we passed the 9th year mark of friendship last month and i am very proud to say our bond is only growing yet stronger and stronger each day. no distance nor circumstance could rob us of the memories we share and the love we embrace. Not forgetting my dearest Elizabeth too! where would i be without all of you?!
anyway, got a new room, with a breath taking-soul lifting view, over looking the whole of Melbourne on the 19th floor, and a good size room to even begin with etc. I've found new hopes, dreaming fresh dreams. things seems pretty well for me now.
though it all, i learned that nature can't be rushed and history can't be recked. things have it specific time of itself that can't be change and our ultimate job is to be patience and wait!
I am longing for my day to come, the day i breathe every breath for. to love and to be love. only time will tell... an unread story yet to be unveil.

I'm so tired! my over worked body is wearing off soon. time is moving so fast yet i am not going fast enough to catch up! days are a dread chasing after trains and trams, walking down endless streets searching for some puny fixtures or huge yet find-me-not buildings. I just need a rest, a good one where I have nothing to worry about, no buses to catch, no rents to mess my bank accounts about, no irresponsible people to drive me up the wall and a little miss perfect i can pretend to be! drowning. sinking in the mess of my own.

Labels: dreadful

picture of my current cave as i promised ages ago. It's an angle from my door if you were wandering.Ha~


compared to my 1st room last year, it's peanuts!

I know it had been a very very very long time since i last blogged! sorry guys! just didn't have the time too! and when i do, that is when i sleep! am suppose to do my case study now but end up blogging again! found a part time job as a carer in an old folks home, so it's back to wiping people's ass again! need $ to pay rent though, so what choice do i have?
anyway, life's hectic living so far from home. it's getting super cold here and i don't like it either. it affects my back when it is and it aches like mad! now it's back to clinicals and ironically i am in a spinal ward.. dotz, might end up there (as a patient) one fine day... ha~things aren't getting any better either. my not that new place isn't merely perfect too. hope things will look brighter and better tomorrow (or maybe the day after tomorrow and after that)!
yup! so that's life in Aussie land! back to my case studies or i will be hacked by my teacher on Monday! ta~

You Will Always Be Close To My Heart

Just Being Me! Simple yet complicated~ There is no good or bad days, just days of grace. The grace to enjoy or the grace to endure.

Wear comfy shoes

Travel around the world

Live a life of a princess

Be in a happy and strong marriage and have lots children

Have my own house and car

buy and do things i could never afford or think about before

SwEeT dIaNa
~aH bOnG~
Mui Mui
BenicE

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